Josh is here. I hope you're all alright.
I'm just going to say this to put it out there.
I don't like the way that I look. When I look in the mirror, I don't like the me that stares back.
I've become afraid of eating. Mainly for the calories.
I went to the Mall today, and had a Papa burger combo at A&W. It was really good. Then afterwards, I went to Chapters and had a Double-chocolatey-chip frappucino. And that was really good too.
I've .. My stomach has expanded. Please don't laugh. Or laugh. Whatever..
Anyway, this is a problem for me. It's a problem because I'm trying to get my stomach back to where it was before.
I'm afraid of gaining weight.
Physical appearances don't mean anything. It's what's inside that counts.
I know this. So I shouldn't have a problem with how I look.. But I do. And I'm sorry. I'm really sorry..
I try to drink more water lately, and excercise on the treadmill, which normally goes for around 30 minutes a day.
I just feel like I'm never going to get this off..
Food is good. And delicious. And even though I have to eat to give my body strength, I don't like it.
Even despite all this, I still love each of you dearly. And care for you. I just wanted to get this out there.
Take care everyone.
I love you all.